Goosebumps and Tears

So, we all have our problems and we all have struggles. Believe me, I don't think I'm the only one, but as you read in an earlier post life is really rough around here. For those of you that have called I apologize that I haven't been answering my phone or returning phone calls, but I'm really just focusing on staying above water right now and I just don't feel like talking. No, I'm not exercising blog therapy again, I just had to tell you this part to get to the really cool part.

Through this rough spot even though I'm not really talking to people, I have been spending more time in devotions and prayer. This has been getting me through.

So, I'm at the gym this morning listening to my new MP3 player and the second song is my beloved Barlow Girl and a song that really spoke to me...check it out, the song is called Never Alone:

I waited for you today, but you didn't show, no
I needed you today, so where did you go
You told me to call, said you'd be there
And though I haven't seen you, are you still there

I cried out with no reply and
I can't feel you by side so
I hold tight to what I know
You're here, and I'm never alone

And though I cannot see you
And I can't explain why
Such a deep, deep reassurance
You've placed in my life

We cannot separate, you're part of me
And though you're invisible, I''ll trust the unseen

I cried out with no reply and
I can't feel you by my side so
I hold tight to what I know
You're here, and I'm never alone

We cannot separate, you're part of me
And though you're invisible, I'll trust the unseen

I cried out with no reply and
I can't feel you by my side so
I hold tight to what I know
You're here and I'm never alone

Pretty cool huh? So, I'm sweating away on the elliptical trainer, singing to myself and singing these words in my plea to God this morning and really gaining some much needed strength from this song and I played it two additional times feeling really good by the time I was done. Ready to move on to the next song having had goosebumps the whole time I was singing, I heard the piano intro to this song again.

"Great," I thought, "Now I've turned on some repeat feature on this dumb thing that now I have to figure out how to turn off". Annoyed, I slowed down and ripped the thing off my waist to check out what the problem was. I looked at the list of the past songs and the current song and the next songs and guess what I saw...

I have nine full CD's loaded on this MP3 player and 2 of these CD's are Barlow Girl and Never Alone appears on both CD's in both a standard version on one and an acoustic version on the other.

You see, out of all the songs that could have shuffled after my choice to listen to Never Alone a few times, the second version of Never Alone came up next. Apparently, He thought I needed to hear it again.

Good thing the gym was fairly empty and no one saw the tears rolling down my face as I sang the words again...this time not by my choice but by His.

Thanks honey for the MP3 player that seemingly was His voice in my storm this morning.